i don’t wish for you to suffer –
but there is no wish to be made
for your life, on my part. i wish
you’d want it to – forbid the horror
of it all; of all that may be avoided in
seeking out; but you do not –
i sought after another word for wish – hope, longing, desire, want; there was none other quite like the nature of a wish – it’s distant and foreign hope for the intangible.